I always push people away. I feel like I overanalyze every little thing and then I just come to a conclusion that it isn’t worth it and I let go of it. When it comes to relationships, I just give it my all from the very beginning and then something little happens and i’m like fuck it. I feel like if I put anymore effort and it just ends .. It would be a waste and I hate that. I absolutely hate that. I wish I could sit here and just let everything go in its place but I can’t. And in the long run i’ll be sorry. But, you know, fuckkkk it.
I’m assuming this is about which sports, singers, actors I favor. I love Football. I’m a die hard Jets fan and always will be. Your opinion, argument or comment about them is invalid to me. NY Jets forever and ever.
I enjoy watching Baseball and for some time I favored the Yankees. Things changed for me when I learned about things I had no knowledge of. I’m not going to sit here and say they suck because they’re good at what they do but I cannot fucking stand them and I hate them all and they .. ugh. So fuck them. Fuck the yankees. I’m a Mets fan till the day I die and I also prefer Boston. I think they’re pretty amazing and good as well.
I watch Basketball from time to time and I favored the Lakers because of kobe. He’s pretty good. I don’t really know much about basketball. In fact, I don’t know shit and i’m always breaking my mind trying to figure out what the fuck is what when I catch it on TV. But, even though I don’t know shit about it, i’d still sit down to watch a game or two any day.
I listen to everything. From Eminem, JayZ, Kanye, JCole, Lupe, Common, Cam’ron, drake, everythingggggggg .. you name it. I just love music.
Whatever i’m reblogging is on my dash. That is all.
One of the wallpapers that my macbook pro brings. I don’t want to take a picture .. blah.
Write a book. I’ve been wanting to write a book for many years now. I feel like I have so much to tell the world that they don’t know that it will help many see things from a different perspective. I want the world to know that there are others who feel what they feel and have been through what they have been through. I don’t want to make the book about my life but about my thoughts, my opinions about things, experiences, everything. I just want to give the world an insight on a human beings life that explain to them that it’s okay to be this, do this and say this. Writing is one of my biggest passions and I love doing it. I hope some day, sooner rather than later, I can have my book in my hands.
I know it’s only suppose to be one thing but there is something else that is truly important to me: I want to fund and develop an organization that specializes on blind kids, suicidal teenagers and women who have been abused. I want to give back to the world, to everyone. I want to hear everyone’s stories and struggles. I want to be a part of everyone’s story.
I hope someday to accomplish all of these things. Soon, very soon.
- A man who isn’t serious enough about what he wants and/or undecided. Where there is doubts, no commitment .. there’s nothing.
- Being overly emotional and overly needy. I have separate things to do that doesn’t involve you. Understand that.
- Immaturity. I can’t deal with someone who acts like I need to babysit them. I will not deal with that.
- Maturity. I LOVE LOVE LOVE a guy that is a man about everything.
- A guy who smells good. Yum ;)
- Well dressed. A man in a suit, OMG <3
Best quotable movie in the history of quotable movies. I can tell you line by line, who said it, where it happen .. everything. I absolutely fucking love it.
And Cady could be from Africa and white.
THE END
I have no idea what that is .. wether it’s a show or movie. Never heard of it until now .. so I have no thoughts or opinion on it.
Never read the books and haven’t seen any movies except for the second/last part to the last movie ever. It was pretty good and I was impressed. But … I’ve never been a fan of the sequel.
- Immature, ignorant, annoying people.
- People who suck their teeth
- Being second guessed. I’ll do it, try me.
- Not getting something right the first time.
- Being annoyed and someone questioning it. Just STFU.
- People who judge without knowledge of the what.
- Basically, people. People piss me off. People are idiots and I can only deal with .2% of them all.
As cliche as this may be, when someone says home I think of, “home is where the heart is”. Home isn’t the place where you only do your living but where you sleep, eat, shower, .. live in. Home is where you find yourself being. Living with the person you love and just being with them is home. Home is also a place where you find yourself being happy. Is a place of constant calm, pure joy. Home is wherever you are able to be free, be you. Home isn’t only a place but it’s a person and even beyond, a destination one can fulfill as well.
I just want to be appreciated because it sucks to know you’ve given everything to have something and then have it all go downhill. I feel like i’m getting older and i’m still in the same place but then i’m not because everything’s changed. I don’t want this to be that. I don’t want much. I don’t even know what i’m saying or what not anymore.
I want to give a fuck again .. but I don’t. Simple.
My URL is my name and I chose that because I thought it was simple and wanted this to be named after me since it belongs to me. I didn’t really think it through or put much thought into it for that matter. I chose VIVALAYANIBELL as the title of my blog because of the perfume “Viva La Juicy” by Juicy Couture. Till this day I haven’t bought the perfume but I fell in love with out it smelled .. it was catchy and I liked it. So, that’s the little story.
My sister, Yanill. My little princess and my little baby, I LOVE HER. People tend to look at our relationship and confuse every bit of it and saying things like - I don’t care about my little sister or that I don’t love her but I DO. She’s completely different from me but we agree in many things, just as much as we disagree as well. We have gotten so close over the past few years and I love that. I try to help her in everything that I can and I try to help her look at life differently. Sometimes I get mad but I get mad because I care about her future and I care about her decisions. I’m really hard on her but it’s only because I want what’s best for her. I will ALWAYS have my little sister’s back, ALWAYS! Any idiot or little fucker, ANYONE who tries to mess with her or get in between her happiness I will personally fucking hurt. No one truly knows how much I care about her, she’s my little princess and I will always look out for her. Yanill, I love you I love you I love youuuuu and I will always be behind you, watching every step you make. I’m so happy and blessed to have YOU be a part of my life, I love you sister <3
